i was reading crazy love today and francis chan was recounting the two examples we have in the bible of when people saw the Lord in his throne room. one time is in revelation 4 when john seems to be scrambling for words to describe the beauty of the Lord and the creatures and elders around him, praising and worshipping him and saying, you are worthy, our Lord and God, to receive glory and honor and power, for you created all things, and by your will they were created and have their being. the creatures around the throne kept repeating, holy, holy,holy is the Lord God Almighty, who was, and is, and is to come. the other example is when isaiah was given a glimpse of God on the throne, and his response was, woe is me, i am ruined! for i am a man of unclean lips, and my eyes have seen the King, the Lord Almighty.
francis chan goes on to say that both of these descriptions serve a purpose. john’s helps us imagine what the throne room of God looks like, while isaiah’s reminds us what our only response to such a God should be.
after i finished reading, i paused and just started worshipping the Lord and confessing how selfish i am. of how determined i am in my own way. asking the Lord to just be deemed worthy enough to serve him. that he would find me a useful vessel for His service.
then i felt the Lord say, ashlea, would you be OK with being a cupbearer?
i started crying more.
you see, i have these desires to do great and amazing things for the Lord. i want my life to be a full display of his worthiness and goodness. therefore, that question hit hard.
would i be OK with a job that was mediocre in my mind, but knowing that is where the Lord wanted me? would i be OK not having a glamorous life? would i be OK with not having a single person know me and my accomplishments?
it’s sad to say, but i wrestle with this. i have a hard time grappling that the Lord could use me in a typical 9-5 job as well as He could use me in the bush of Africa.
then i was reminded of something i learned recently. do you know what stephen (from the bible) did for a job? all i knew about stephen was that when people looked at him, his face was like an angel, and that he was stoned to death for preaching the truth. stephen’s job?
during this time, as the disciples were increasing in numbers by leaps and bounds, hard feelings developed among the greek-speaking believers toward the hebrew-speaking believers because their widows were being discriminated against in the daily food lines. so the twelve called a meeting of the disciples. they said, ‘it wouldn’t be right for us to abandon our responsibilities for preaching and teaching the word of God to help with the care of the poor. so, friends, choose seven men from among you whom everyone trusts, men full of the Holy Spirit and good sense, and we’ll assign them this task … they went ahead and chose – stephen… (acts 6: 1-6)
yes, stephen’s job was food distributer.
that doesn’t seem too glamorous to me. but stephen, despite his job, still shared the good news with fervor and urgency.
stephen, brimming with God’s grace and energy, was doing wonderful things among the people, unmistakable signs that God was among them (acts 6:8).
you see, it doesn’t matter the job. what does matter is the heart and knowing who you’re serving. whether you’re living in the bush of africa caring for orphans or answering phones 9-5. knowing the Lord. loving the Lord. this is what is important. do the job the Lord has called you to – glamorous or not – and do it well. for it is for the Lord.
i wanted to know the details of a cup-bearers job, so i looked it up in wikipedia and this is how it describes it:
A cup-bearer was an officer of high rank in royal courts, whose duty it was to serve the drinks at the royal table. On account of the constant fear of plots and intrigues, a person must be regarded as thoroughly trustworthy to hold this position. He must guard against poison in the king’s cup, and was sometimes required to swallow some of the wine before serving it. His confidential relations with the king often gave him a position of great influence. The position of cup bearer is greatly valued and given to only a select few throughout history. Qualifications for the job were not held lightly but of high esteem valued for their beauty and even more for their modesty, industriousness and courage.
cup-bearer doesn’t seem that great – but it was a position highly esteemed and for someone thoroughly trustworthy.
i thank the Lord that no matter what the job looks like, the privilege of sharing about His Son is for anyone – and is a position highly esteemed.